Today I found out that J got married. Did it surprise me? A little bit because of how our conversations about marriage always went. Did it hurt to hear about? Surprisingly no. And when I say surprisingly, I mean it, really & truly I fully expected that when the day came that I heard about him marrying someone else that I would have a little meltdown. I told my sister, Syd, who was staying with me for the weekend for a little visit & her first response: Oh Linz, are you ok? Do we need to get you some wine & have a girlie movie night? I could honestly say with a smile that I felt fine, I felt nothing about the ties J & I used to have. IT. FELT. AWESOME! Haha!
Seeing the picture made me realize that although it hurt at the time to end things with J, it was absolutely the right decision & I have no regrets. Because we aren't together, we've both come to find the right person for each of us. Because I walked away from our relationship, I have found an amazing man who I fall more in love with all the time; who loves his goddaughters like they were his own daughters; who puts everyone else before himself (something I have to remind him about sometimes to take some time for himself too, haha); a man who does so many little things for me because they reminded him of me or because we have a little inside joke about it or because I mentioned at some point that I liked a certain thing & he remembered. I have no regrets to have chosen to move forward. I have no regrets because God knew there was something better in store for both of us, just not both of us together as a couple.
This song pretty much describes it, haha!
♥Linz
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