This has definitely been something I've thought about for a long time. Three weeks ago, my pastor gave a message on Matthew 5 (part of a series he completed this past weekend called "FIVE" - 5 weeks, 5 chapters, 5 days a week) & it really hit home. (watch his message here: http://vimeo.com/37467311) After hearing Pastor John's message, I realized that his points on anger, that's me: I'm angry at J & I have been for a few years, even before we broke up. I'm not an overall angry person, but there are so many aspects of my relationship with J that have left me angry & it's time to "forgive & forget". Since I don't think seeing or talking to J is in the near future, this "note" will just have to do.
J:
I forgive you.
I forgive you for having the power to hold my whole heart & the ability to break it. That's exactly what you did. I loved you & would've done anything to keep our relationship together, but that was never enough for you. I suffered in silence & prayed that it would be "worth it" in the end. Was it? Not even close. I spent nearly 4 years with someone I couldn't even be my true self with & that's what makes me angry.
I forgive you for all of it. I. Forgive. You.
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.
(http://vimeo.com/17239912)
♥Linz
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